11.14.2024

さいきん。Notes upon solo traveling

Been talking about cats and dogs with several people, and this morning I had a dream that I adopted 4 cats 😂 it was so cute that each of the 4 had different personalities (or catonalities I should say), but I freaked out that I only had 1 cat toilet. And there was some detective type story happened afterwards.  It's all over the place, but that symbolically showed how extremely occupied I have been for the past few weeks with two work deadlines and a hiccup with some of my friends. 

Ohh I wish I had someone whom I can tell anything and everything, and whom accept it without judging me or being too emotionally involved.  And I wish I had someone whom I could do the same with too.

This is really my problem, not anyone else's.  And I've been working on it 🤔

It's worth remembering that I'm like quite a different person when I'm feeling great and when I'm feeling down.  I tend to blame myself a lot when I make a mistake.  I'm on a run of doing something that I'd regret later on..

I should have, could have, and would have.., these are all the things that you could say later on but you don't know at that moment.

And still, I think it's part of ups and downs that happen in life, and I'm here to embrace it, neither ignore it nor overreact to it.. easier said than done, though.

Anyways. 

Solo traveling is calming. 

I was so reluctant to do it, but it is good. 

Rather, I make it feel good to me for my own sake.

This kinda things have happened before. And I was forgiven, thanks to many kind-hearted people. And, I've forgiven a lot of people, too. This is how interpersonal relationships go. 

I don't need anymore regrets and preaching.  I just want peace of mind, and I'll wait for it. 

The sunset in Lake Shinji was gorgeous.. the area near the art museum was soothing. Love the large open area with lawn and a lake. I should go explore sites with freshwater.



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